Today started off terrible. Pretty much the same as yesterday ended. I was exhausted by noon. The "cream of mushroom" soup I made was disgusting, but we ate it anyway. Hubby is feeling pretty bad, at least the girls are starting to feel better, so that makes life easier. Less whining, less fighting. Lots more play, laughter and giggling. Just as it should be.
When Meggy took her nap, I took mine. And then I felt a little better. As the day went on I started to feel better and better and around 3pm I caught a glance of my reflection in a mirror. Wow, I look good! No make-up, really need to wash my hair, but . . . the circles under my eyes are gone, my face isn't puffy & my color is awesome, my eyes are bright. I look like I spent the day at the spa. Or what I imagine that would look like. Unfortunately I chose to weigh myself this morning. I gained 1.5 pounds, somehow, since Sunday. Consuming less than 1,000 calories daily of fresh produce & vegetable soups. Only I could GAIN weight on a juice fast. Now maybe I should've waited until Monday. And maybe Monday morning this will be resolved and I will have lost 5 pounds or something. But seriously? The only gleam of hope keeping on this detox course at this point, is my fabulous reflection. And that I committed to this with my hubby. And that I actually am feeling pretty good right now. Less stressed, less needing to snack attack after the girls are in bed. My big hope is that I can end my emotional eating & my crazy carb/sugar addiction with this detox. And just not look back. I need to start incorporating exercise. And that is part of the plan. Maybe even tomorrow. But definitely Friday when Husband is off work. I think I want to continue this crazy juice fast. At least through Sunday. But I might take a very gradual path back to eating. We shall see. I need to make some lifestyle changing & drop some major pounds before the next pregnancy. God willing. Because my post-partum body tends to go into hormone chaos. It was bad with baby#1 and then worse with baby#2. I just look at a donut or bagel and I gain weight.
I am curious if my body has gone into a "starvation mode" and that's why I gained. I had a half portion of an almased shake last night. and again tonight. I am hoping it helps with the weight loss. I know it helps me not feel hungry or even think about food or snacking after the girls go to bed. I will be relying on these shakes as I transition & I feel pretty good about them. They dont have a bunch of artificial flavors, colors, sugars. Basically, fermented soy, yogurt & honey & some b vitamins. But magically, they cut cravings all together. It is 90 calories for a 1/2 serving if you make it with water.
So I am staying the course. Because of my reflection.
I'm singing, "I'm talking 'bout the man (or woman) in the mirror, I'm asking him (or her) to change his ways...take a look at yourself than make the change" Here's the link so you can have it in your head and be singing it all day to yourself, yes, you're welcome ;)
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Go you! You finished 3 days! I know you can do it! I'll send prayers and will power your way :)
ReplyDeleteSo glad I rediscovered this post! Way to go on the weight loss! We are setting up the wii and I am going to "attempt" to hula hoop...praying I don't break more bones. :-)
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